I read Hanglu's blog, and this struck me, "What is beautiful and blooming today will inevitably become a wilting flower tomorrow." It's true... life is transient. it reminds me of the song "Who Am I" by Casting Crowns.
Last night i tossed and turned, thinking of job, house, frens, life, what to wear tomorrow... heh :P
My room is in quite a mess, lots of stuff dumped in one corner or another. Actually i dunno where to put them cos to me these are waiting to be moved to my new house. Not that i am packing already (too early!) but i seem to have been collecting alot of stuff in anticipation of moving! And not to mention, not enough wardrobe space now :P
Bernard and i bought stuff here and there. we said we'd buy one art piece and one magnet from every country we travel to. and since then, i have continued doing this. Except for my recent trip to KL. i don't really want to remember KL.
I wondered, when people leave us, and there is nothing tangible to hold on to anymore, do we try to find substitutes?
I had obsessively collected, organized and kept memorabilia: photos represent our memories.. smses and emails represent his words.. perfume bottles represent his scent.. clothes represent his style..
It's silly, but sometimes i'd look back thru my palm schedule or smses to check... hmm so what did we do, what did he say to me this day 1, 2 years ago?
I burnt all the emails he had sent me into a cd. but i never did load them into my laptop again. will the cd spoil? should i print them all out? will i ever load the cd and open and read all the emails again? what is the symbolism of keeping the cd then? does it make a difference?
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