6th anniversary

Bernard will always live in the hearts of those who love him.

Speights

After so many years of searching for this special NZ ale that we loved, i finally saw it today in a proper supermarket, sitting among all the other beers. Cold Storage at Raffles City, to be exact. it's finally here in Singapore! I did find Tui at Carrefour some years back, but we liked Speights better.

Previously, i heard that it came during the annual Beer Fest, but incidentally never got the chance to attend any cos i was always out of town. i did ask a fren to buy a couple of bottles for me one year.

Seeing it today was rather poignant. especially after having dreams and nightmares the whole of last night about Bernard. i woke up several times, fell back asleep, and had dreams of varying sadness. i penned down all of them in detail, but shall not post them here.
and yesterday i happened to look at my whatsapp contacts and saw bernard's contact among them (i never deleted it from my phone). that wasn't the first time. the first time, there was a weird word as the status - "hersch" or something. this time, one of his numbers was tagged with "Bei der Arbeit" (think it means "at work" in German) and another "Hey there! I am using Whatsapp" (he had two mobile numbers).

all these are nothing, i suppose. over the years, memories have come back, happy ones and sad ones. we all go through ups and downs; "moving on" is after all still a journey.

by the way, i'm now studying counselling :) it's all very interesting. there's still much to be done in terms of public education in this area. i see it as a holistic well-being: we see doctors for physical ailments, pastors for spiritual growth, and counsellors for emotional and mental therapy.