A breath away’s not far.. To where you are

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(Ally McBeal version)

To Where You Are - Josh Groban

Who can say for certain
Maybe you’re still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You’re still an inspiration
Can it be?
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn’t faith believing
All power can’t be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
’cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

I know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

Sharing lives... random thots (part 2)

Oh yes. Another thot i had last night (yes i think a lot, but always too tired/lazy to get up n write down or blog it)

I was just thinking of this blog...
At first my grand plan was to share our lives and photos with the rest of the world.. well not really the world.. but i suppose with all our frens. Sort of like reaching out to people and stuff like that maybe help people recover by seeing more of this personal side of his life.

Over time, i realized... that this blog is actually for myself. It is for me to help myself recover, to reach out to me, deep deep inside where it is bittersweet.

Borrow from hanglu's blog... this song is very touching...

Melodies of Life from Final Fantasy IX.

(Lyrics in the english version of the song)

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain
Melodies of life--love's lost refrain

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold
In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
Adding up the layers of harmony
And so it goes, on and on
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

If I should leave this lonely world behind
Your voice will still remember our melody
Now I know we'll carry on
Melodies of life
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember

Sharing lives... random thots

Last night, the last thought i had before falling asleep was that i'm willing to exchange as many years of my life as it takes for his... if only we can spend the rest of our lives together... i'll give him half of mine. Not more also, cos i don't want to die before him and he'll be heartbroken.

Just a random thot...

Portrait of a happy family

Happy first wedding anniversary to Raymond and Xianghe on 2 Oct...

Oct 2005 was an exciting month for Bernard's family and for us as well. In Oct 05, Er-ge got married, Da-ge and Da-sao had their lovely bundle of joy - Audrey, and we went on the adventure of our lifetime to New Zealand. Later on i learnt, that it was also in Oct 05 that he'd placed the order for our engagement ring.

Bernard is very much a family man, and nothing made him happier than to see so many good things happening at home. I was also very happy to share in his joy and be part of his world. To be there in the morning for the tea ceremony, and to sit together at the family table during the wedding banquet, meant a lot to me.

To my darling, thank you for loving me

Dear baby,

I have written to you in my personal journals almost everyday for the past few months. I will share today's entry here.

Today, I just want to say, thank you for loving me.

Thank you for caring for me, for entrusting your heart to me, for opening up your life and bringing out the best in me.

True love is the unconditional giving of oneself. Thank you for teaching me that.

On the 1st of every month, i feel a tinge of sadness. As Crystal was sending me home last night, i thot, 5 months have passed... My frens have lovingly taken over the "task" of caring for me. I miss you everyday, and i wonder, are you watching over all of us from heaven? I wonder everyday what heaven is like for you. I know you are still loving me from where you are. You don't have to worry about me, cos you know that God will provide for my every need, as i continue on my journey here before we meet again in heaven.

Yesterday, Elaine and i were supposed to go blading, but it rained heavily. I was secretly relieved. Because you taught me how to blade, and i am still not confident enough to blade without holding on to your hand. The feeling of my hand in yours as we glided along East Coast Park was the most comforting feeling. But i know, i can't be such a wuss forever. So at night, i decided to join some of our frens for mahjong. It was the first time i played, after the last time when you sat with me and taught me to play. I have improved abit, you know? It is a small step, a part of picking myself up and learning to do everything by myself, those things that you used to do for me and with me.

I was looking thru the posts in the blog. Most of the blog was a record of all the activities that we had done together. But that was not all there was to our relationship, for we also learnt the value of just being together.

We started off doing something great, something fascinating every weekend. We went fishing, blading, suntanning, the list goes on. But over time, we came to realize that great times exist in quiet moments too. We then started enjoying time together at home, whether cosying up to a good movie, or with a cup of hot cocoa and a good book. Or even feasting on takeaway (my fave ngor hiang from boon lay) and watching Liverpool matches. During the New Year countdown at Sentosa, we stayed away from all the revelry, and spent the 4 hours or so just sitting on the beach enjoying each other's presence, reflecting and talking quietly. We smiled at each other a lot, we enjoyed those perfect moments.



Thank you for all our beautiful memories.

Love, grace