Thank you

To all of you who still click on this blog:

First of all, thank you :) I probably don't know some of you, but the comments and prayers you have left with me have been such an encouragement to me throughout these past many years.

We all go through ups and downs, times in our lives when we feel inspired, and other periods when we are just stuck in the dumps. As time passed, I got caught up with the anxieties of life and chasing after things that i want, and I realize I have forgotten many of the important lessons and insights of those years. seeking to control every aspect of my life, feeling upset with God when things don't turn out the way I want them to, focusing so hard inwardly that I seem to have lost sight of the bigger picture.

and so, when one of you wrote a comment here a few weeks ago, i came back and read through the posts i wrote over the years and all the heartfelt comments. thank you for your encouraging and touching words, for journeying along with me and making me feel like these things matter.

truly, humans have short memories. and journaling is like taking verbal snapshots of our moments in life, reflections that help us grow, mature, remember.

This blog is meant to preserve my precious memories of Bernard, and chronicle the journey of recovery. There are still days that I struggle with my emotions, and I guess they never really go away.

and so, one reason I have stopped updating here is that the inane things in my life don't quite justify a spot (so yes I have another blog that is all about my random ramblings :P), and also, i guess sometimes I feel guilty if I seem to dwell too much on the past.

But I am so glad that I kept this blog :)

Some updates - I have been married for two and a half years now, and my husband has his rightful place in my heart. My sweet, bumbling, clumsy and blur little cocker spaniel puppy too :)

Bernard is precious to me, and I know to some of you too. I miss him every day and he will always have that special place in my heart. Please forgive me for not writing here, but believe me when I say - he is no less important to me now than 7 years ago.