Journey to the past... on to find my future

One of hanglu's fave songs... one day it suddenly popped up in my head, and i thot.. how very true it feels for me at this moment, for various reasons...

Journey to the Past
Anastasia

Heart don't fail me now
Courage don't desert me
Don't turn back now that we're here
People always say
Life is full of choices
No one ever mentions fear

Or how a road can seem so long
How the world can seem so vast
Courage see me through
Heart I trust in you
On this journey to the past

Somewhere down this road
I know someone's waiting
Years of dreams just can't be wrong
Arms will open wide
I'll be safe and wanted
Finally home where I belong

Well starting here my life begins
Starting now, I'm learning fast
Courage see me through
Heart I trust in you
On this journey to the past

One step at a time
One hope then another
Who knows where this road may go
Back to who I was
On to find my future
Things my heart still needs to know

Yes, let this be a sign
Let this road be mine
Let it lead me to my past
Courage see me through
Heart I trust in you
To bring me home
At last

Removing those marks

So much for telling all my frens recently how nicely i am moving on...
Five minutes before i woke up this morning, i dreamt of Bernard with such vividness that it shook me.... i can almost feel the saltiness of his skin.

We were jogging together, and after stopping, i sat down and examined the mud spots on my new running shoes, wondering how to remove them.

He taught me some quick tips and tricks. i looked at him for a moment, hugged him very tightly, and cried... pleading with him to please don't leave me... or else who would be there to teach me all those little things in future...

then i woke up.