it was yet another moment of weakness.
not that i am trying to dwell on and be stuck in the past, but i guess there are times i need to have a quiet few moments remembering Bernard.
i prayed today that God will lift me up and fill my heart with cheer and love.. and i made a commitment to stop being self indulgent; but instead, to focus on others.
And i read this just now (in a book about using time wisely as Christians):
Spend your time in nothing which you know must be repented of; in nothing on which you might not pray for the blessing of God; in nothing which you could not review with a quiet conscience on your dying bed; in nothing which you might not safely and properly be found doing if death should surprise you in the act.
- Richard Baxter (1615-1691)
Well, the multiple negatives took me a while to digest.. but i think i roughly get the drift :)
i think, no matter how we justify ourselves, the scariest thing to me is that God knows our heart.
2 comments:
what happened? i thought you've got over bernard?
hugs.
hi im a silent follower of your blog.im sure many people does read this blog and is sure touched by your story with bernard!
do keep on writing! but i hope you do move on with life, find another guy whom you love..im sure bernard would want you to find your happiness again..!
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